More Blessed to Give than Receive

Cliché … maybe. But, test it out and then see if you want to have a fight over word choice. Blessing others is like peeking through a window at God’s glory and goodness and then getting knocked off your feet at its splendor.

Well, here on earth it is less romantic. If we get knocked off our feet, we land on a dirty, dusty earthen floor. But, let me tell you, God’s splendor is no less magnificent because we live in a sinful world. Not at all. God’s splendor will always be the same: perfect. So, no matter what kind of earth we are standing on today, we can reflect the image of God by blessing others.

Here is what happens when you do:)

ALP teachers and staff (Honduran and North American) came together this Christmas to bless Amor y Fe y Esperanza, a school started about 4 years ago next to the garbage dump outside the city of Tegucigalpa. Classes used to be given under nearby trees, but now are conducted in classrooms in the four buildings constructed for that purpose. The ministry seeks to provide education and resources to children who only have a future searching through the garbage dump piles for food, money, and livelihood.

We took the idea of Operation Christmas Child and made it local – for our own city and our own neighbors. We posted names, ages, and grades and staff then picked from the list and created boxes (or bags) to send to the school. We collected and delivered them and … it was beautiful. Here are some pictures of the journey:










Here is a description of the ministry of AFE in 30 seconds.
http://www.youtube.com/get_player

Today more blessings came in all kinds of shapes and sizes. Some of the blessings came after my muscles were so tense and my heart so anxious that only afterward did I realize how much the blessings depend on God and not me. All I can do in my worrying is take away from God’s steadfast promise to be there as sturdy as an oak.

More stories will follow…

tradition, tradition (with rolled Rs)


For me, the “Christmas spirit” in recent years is less fluttery and less emotion-driven. Especially these last two in Honduras with it being so warm and just very, very different. I am attaching new sentiments to this time of year. I am finding incredible joy in giving and reaching out and loving. I’m sad for the years I thought Jesus’ birth was about me, so now I feel in a frenzy to flip everything around.

I was thinking about all the memories and traditions I hold close to my heart… and thinking that I would someday want to create a home much like my parents did for me. Even if it took me years to understand the beauty in this season, I so cherish the moments I can look back and see how every Christmas pointed in the direction of heaven.

Sure, it may SEEM like more fun to have your head glued to a TV screen or stuck in endless shopping lines, but I prefer really living and cherishing these moments with the people I love.So, here are some of our family Christmas traditions I would like to share with you:

  1. Christmas caroling to neighbors and friends… this is one of my most loved. We stuff ourselves into the van with gifts for each house and then every one – from dad to brothers to sisters to mom – lift our voices for sweet choruses of joy! (sometimes they don’t sound so sweet but we have fun and we hope those listening do too!
  2. Cookie decorating contest. This is serious business. Every year the “rules” are brought into question because it’s so competitive and everyone is trying to find their edge or angle to seize the championship title. William and Christina have by far the best workmanship. Samuel and Bethany always somehow are a judge favorite. James is the best sport about the whole thing and always comes out my best friend:) Me… well, let’s just say my cookies are pronounced “abstract.”
  3. Mom (in our younger days and now all of us) baking in the kitchen while others wander in and out and end up plopping down on the linoleum floor for some of the best conversations ever.
  4. Christmas Eve dinner: potato soup for the “kids” and oyster soup for the parents, anadama bread, cheese and crackers, egg nog (recently switched over to light), sparkling grape juice:) and tapioca pudding… So simple and so good!!
  5. Candelight service at church – my favorite part is when we all file out of the auditorium into the fellowship hall singing “Silent Night” the groups in the two separate rooms inevitably find different tempos, but we all get back on track in time to fill that cozy space with joyful song.
  6. Opening gifts with my parents and siblings… one at a time because every gift has a story
  7. Watching the little red tin on the dining room table grow every year with our tithes and offerings that will go toward a worthy cause.
  8. It may not be the same every year, but you can bet it is a tradition to invent some crazy outdoor activity. One year I wanted to learn to snowboard, so I had my brother hook up a rope behind the four-wheeler and I rode behind it in the yard! Another year, my brothers and a few friends went sledding… on a picnic table… down an ice hill… without shirts on. When we were younger, it was always piling into the pick-up truck and finding a good soft sledding hill where we could use our saucer sled and plastic pieces. I do remember a few bruised bums when we tried a gravel road 🙂
  9. Christmas with Gram and Gramps (Sponsler) on Christmas day is a favorite. We get there early for a brunch and then munch all day and lay around nursing our stomach aches 🙂 The presents have become less important and the time spent together PRIME.
  10. Nichols Christmas. Whew! How do I explain it? Can you picture homemade doughnuts (which begin before 5 am with Aunt Jane’s preparation)? Can you picture the reunion of aunts, uncles, cousins (I’m sure we’re over 60 people in all now) who haven’t seen each other in awhile but still feel like we never left? Can you picture a day full of laughter and storytelling and the annual “aunt walk” and random road trips to the dollar store? No, you cannot picture it, but it is amazing!

Okay. I have to stop at 10 because I could go on forever and tomorrow is a BIG day. I am going to the garbage dump. Why? You ask.

Well, because people live there. Every day, all year round. The garbage dump is their reality and there’s a beautiful light called Amor y Fe y Esperanza (Love and Faith and Hope) that seeks to love and care for and be Jesus to these people. There is a school with 138 children and we are delivering 138 gifts with the name of each child.

God is so good. I can’t wait to see His face in these children!

bringing broken pieces


Today I am thankful God asks us to bring brokenness before Him… I am thankful that complete, pulled-together-perfection is not His expectation as we meet Him at the throne.

As David writes in Psalm 51,
A broken and contrite heart, Oh Lord, you will not despise.

Thank you, Lord, for inviting such messes into Your presence. Thank You for hearing our angry questions and fears. Thank you for knowing the robust rebellion of our hearts and still whispering words of peace.

Thank you for not changing. Oh, thank you Lord for not ever changing!

Lord, I am trusting You to be faithful. I am trusting You to care for the broken-hearted better than any earthly touch. I am trusting You to be in the gaps where we can’t possibly understand. I am trusting You to be the strength and love and peace where there seems to be none. I am trusting You, Oh Lord, to be You today.

reformation day… and the end of october

This is a picture of me trying out the box as bed before the sleepout last Friday night.

Tonight is a night for lists, so check this out:

-in honor of reformation day, check out these links:
Ligonier Ministries
Reformation Day Meditation

-to try at home:
homemade chai in several variation (I could NOT find cardamoms here and it turned out okay)
baked butternut squash or winter soup with butternut squash

-to listen:
city on our knees by tobymac (see previous post)
anything vince guaraldi
hank by ben rector

-to craft:
i’m going to try patchwork postcards

it’s been a good couple days, folks. a good couple days.

i am missing, a bit, the fam around this time of year. i sure do love ’em.

little miracles

art from my new fave: funky art queen

I’m praising the Lord. This post is one of thanksgiving – for all the people God puts in my life to save the day. These are heroes – real, live ones who will probably never be duly thanked for the way they (in one way or other) line right up next to Timothy, in taking a genuine interest in the welfare of others. That really sets a person apart, you know?

Here’s my all-star list:
Douglas
Douglas drives bus number 8 and wears aviator glasses. Last year, whenever I ended up on his bus, I always thought he didn’t really like his job (especially when it involved carting a bunch of gringos around) because of he kept quiet and often listened to headphones.

But, this year he sure did surprise me! He was the one who picked me up at the airport and then helped me get the car ready to drive and then… quickly turned into my dependable and trustworthy mechanic. I seriously can’t explain the kindness and honesty … and the patience about all the questions, scattered Spanish, and constant pleas for “cheaper.” He is seriously a blessing (so whoever was out there praying for me to find a good mechanic consider it answered!).

Jose Miguel
Hm. I don’t quite know how to start this one. I had a friend come visit from the states. I took full advantage of the convenience in my car… driving around the countryside, the mountains, to my student’s house, and back again to the city… then I took one wrong turn and ended up in a neighborhood called 21 de Octubre… at night… in the rain. And at that moment (not any other moment, like for instance on a curvy mountain road or in a isolated location) my right wheel decided to stop responding to the steering wheel.

Long story short(er), God provided moment by moment and led me to the doorstep of Jose Miguel, not a 2 minute walk away. He was so kind and helpful and promised to work as quickly as he could. Then his nephew drove by and Jose Miguel volunteered him to take us home (in his little teeny pinto with cardboard covering the windshield). So we arrived home and we could not stop exclaiming about God’s providence and timing… and then 2 hours later as we were trying to figure out the schedule for picking up the car the next morning, JM called to say he finished and he would drive it to my house. WOW.

Stacy, Laura, Steph, Cara
You may or may not be aware that in the past few weeks I’ve had countless opportunities to use my animated, excitable nature to… fReAk oUt. With the 24/7 prayer room and the Sleep Out and various other activities (oh, yes, and don’t forget randomly not having school after winning against El Salvador), I felt the stress to the max. These girls jumped right in, constantly asking if and what I needed. My sanity is probably still in place because of the thoughtfulness and compassion of these girls. May their reward be great!!

Jess
We don’t have to say much, Jess and I. We kind of just know that we are always in need of support and she does a darn good job of giving it! She is such an encourager… and I think we are like-minded in wanting to be fully in our ministry here. We have this kind of respect between us – where we may make plans, but time with students always trumps. All I know is, in the past week, Jess has constantly spurred me on and I’m so thankful!

Heather
I won’t lie – it’s been difficult. Last year, Heather and I did pretty much and completely everything together. We led Bible study, went to the feeding center, got groceries, explored, worshipped. We were a team and a pretty good one. Well, it seems that we were almost too good. God wanted us to split up so we’d both depend on Him more and each other less. I haven’t enjoyed going solo, but I have seen the Lord show me things I need to change in order to rightly represent Him. Heather? She’s in Canada, which may sound far, but from the notes, emails, and (yes, even!) packages, it sometimes feels like she’s still close. The only thing I hate is that condensing my thoughts is so time-consuming that I don’t feel like we really ever adequately ‘catch-up.’

Lourdes
So, I’m taking Spanish lessons from this angel of a woman named Lourdes. Every other Tuesday I get to sit under her tutelage and her wisdom. God is using her in my life to bring strength and courage and affirmation. I cannot express how blessed I am to share time and space with a woman so devoted to God’s purposes.

Gerardo
Gerardo drives bus 12 and always wears a baseball cap. I know Gerardo pretty well because he’s my bus driver. I’m not sure if it’s the Caedmon’s Call song (bus driver) or the fact that my grandpa is a bus driver, but I just have a pretty grand appreciation for the profession. In any case, Gerardo takes great care with his job. Every turn and stop is precise. Some of the kids on the bus share a special handshake and others always make sure to share some conversation before leaving. He’s softspoken, but so tender-hearted. When he drives the late bus he always drives right to our gate instead of dropping us at the end of the dark street. His kindness is really impressive.

Eloisa
Where do I begin with this girl? She is in 9th grade and she’s earned the title of “my rock star” and I’m not kidding around. The Hands and Feet service club meets once/week on Wednesdays and Eloisa is always getting down to business. Her commitment and creativity has (many weeks) been the brightest spot in my day. This past weekend for the sleepout, she offered herself every spare minute and then followed me around after school running errands. We don’t have many students who are that perceptive to the needs of others, but this one sure is. I’m so grateful!

I know there are many, many more who bless my life each day. But, today, these are the heroes. Praise God for them!

24-7 prayer

Wow.

This week is meant to rock, shift, break, humble.

It is doing all that. Praise God for the way His plan, purpose, and peace settle into our souls and stretch out from our lives! I’m very tired, but very ready for another day of beautiful life in this place. May God be glorified with the sun’s rise and setting – and in our joyful toiling about doing His purposes!

wish words were better

have you ever found yourself so easily expressive when you are at the bottom? the words come out like a water hydrant – broken, spewing and streaming out of control.

but then blessings come like the most beautiful downpour and then… nothing.

this is how I feel right now.

God unleashes the most gentle, welcome shower of promises today and all I can do is smile up at the sky with a silly wet face.

the last two weeks

A week ago, I was lamely wishing for 48 hour days and bodies without need of rest.

Now, I’ve had almost an entire week without school, thank you gripe porcina (swine flu), and more time than I thought possible. Yes, that’s right. Monday was going along like any day, when my principal appeared in my office doorway. In a calmer voice than the situation warranted, he said, “We are not telling students at this point, but we will not be having classes for two weeks starting tomorrow.” He would have walked out, too (in the same unceremonious way) if I had not stopped him and made him listen to my gawking, confusing responses.

“For two whole weeks?” “Just like that?” “The school is closed – like we can’t work?” “What will we do exactly?”

I finally let him leave, but I was almost in tears. I knew almost immediately this was an attack spiritually, because we are really at a tipping point for students. The first spiritual life activities were planned to start this week and they were canceled. It is also just a crucial relationship-building time with students (my first Bible study was to be this week), where we are just getting to the place of trust and confidence and they are making decisions about what this year will look like. Here is a sample of my Bible study poster for 11th grade and the breakfast club Bible study for 10-12th grades.


As always, what Satan intends for evil, God can always turn to blessing. After my initial shock, I ended up joyful to enter into these two weeks where I really felt led to meet with as many students as possible. I posted this on my facebook:

Caroline Nichols
gripe porcina decided it wanted to close our school for two weeks… so I decided to OPEN ‘camp nichols’. Feel free to check in for a free night or a week at my humble abode in la campaña – bring your own food and entertainment. I’m now OPEN for business and ready for visitors 🙂

and about I went. I’ve had girls over, one spend the night, and plans for more this week. I am trying to meet up with them, but also take the time to do some reflecting, planning, visioning, and nesting (no, I’m still not done with that phase!).

Here are some stories that will make you laugh, I hope!

a few funny stories
minor accident – So, last Monday we found out there would be no school for two weeks. How do we celebrate? Well, I picked up Daniella and MariaJose and we went out to coffee. Though I know I depend solely on the Lord to make the car function and bring us safely to our destination, the girls have been pretty impressed with my driving abilities. This night was no different. However, as we pull up to the little coffee house parking lot (no bigger than a bedroom and right off a busy street), the parking attendants couldn’t do enough hand motions to get the lady in front of me to stop backing up. So, she didn’t. She backed right into me!! Boy, was that interesting! I received a crash course (tehe) in fender-bender protocol. Good thing was, this woman was hugely sorry and ended up just giving me cash (that she randomly left at a fabric store for me to pick up!?) to fix the chrome grille molding.

contra via- After meeting with Daniella one night, I was driving her to church and she motioned to take a right on the next street. Before I got to far, the drivers were hanging out their windows yelling, “contravia!” which of course means that I was going the wrong way. Don’t worry, this has only happened on three occasions! 🙂 I corrected myself and playfully yelled at Daniella, who could not stop laughing. “It USED to be two way, Miss, I swear!”

painting at a student’s house- One day this week, I woke up and leisurely went about a lazy morning routine before I headed over to MariaJose’s house to lay in the sun (at 9 am!) on her little back porch and then paint her sister’s bedroom.

home improvement projects
I’m not sure if it is the fabulous apron I made with my grandma, or if it is the new apartment in the city… whatever it is, I just love to make creations in the kitchen. When my students came over last week, we endeavored to make homemade pizza from scratch. Of course it took ENTIRELY too long for them to appreciate and enjoy, I had fun and we had lots of time to hang out in the kitchen 🙂 My favorite and easiest addition to my diet is hummus. I have only had a few varieties that I really like, so what is better than to make it the way I like it right here in my own kitchen?! I use black beans with the garbanzo beans and I use less lemon juice than they suggest. I also add a splash of spice and there’s my snack for the week!

I have also welcomed the re-discovery of decorating this new place. I have painted a few canvases, experimented with lanterns, and really thought about how to use my home as a physical reminder of my spiritual goals.


What else? This is getting too long already. I realize I haven’t written in such a long time. I promise I will make it up soon! A September newsletter is on its way! While you are waiting, check out this video of the crazy macaw birds that live next door. 🙂

she said YES

I hope you don’t feel strange that I am SO excited that Daniella said “YES” when I asked if we could meet one on one for discipleship. I’m not sure she knows yet what she’s getting into, but after I met up with her tonight at a coffee shop I just kept praising God for the opportunities. I can’t begin to describe the ways He is blessing me… and giving me ways to be a blessing to others!

After I left the triumphant meeting :), I picked up a friend in El Centro and drove to Micah Project for the Night Service again. And again it was beautiful. The boys are fantastic – great Spanish teachers and just really good brothers. The service is always special, simple, and intimate – we sit in a circle in the little courtyard and sing songs then hear a message.

I am tired from a long day, but very VERY blessed.

If you are tired and weary and carrying around some doubts, read Isaiah 41. A woman gave a testimony in church this morning and used this passage to encourage us… even as the times are uncertain, that we must remember who God is. So, go ahead and take a few minutes, even an hour and just meditate on the person of God.

Blessings to you!

5 Thoughts for Friday

Did any of you grow up watching Feature Films for Families?

Rigoletto came popped into my head this morning and “The Melody Within” has been skipping through my fragile-Friday mind ever since. It hasn’t bothered me one bit!

5 Thoughts for Friday:

1. I don’t think I’ll grow out of being obnoxious. Though I have put great effort into controlling my spontaneous (sometimes delirious) nature, I’ve come to the conclusion that my silliness is absolutely unavoidable…. which of course leads me to the conclusion that teaching holds a very questionable future for me.

2. I love trees. It’s a weird obsession, kind of like being preoccupied with wise old men who have already passed on (like Blaise Pascal and C.S. Lewis). I love to think about all the symbolism wrapped into the roots of strong, solid oaks and the uniform beauty in a row of evergreens. I just love ’em.

3. Being rational is sometimes overrated. Notice I didn’t say all the time. There is a great place for reason in life, though I too often forget and consider it the infrequent exception instead of the rule. Being irrational is more exciting, easier, faster, more accessible (and sometimes more damaging). All that said, reason can just as easily argue us right out of a perfectly valid risk – and of that I am not a fan.

4. Lemonade. The only satisfactory refreshment for all that is hot and sticky. Though lemons here actually look like limes and the end result hardly resembles the powdered concoctions of “Countrytime” fame, the refreshing citrus is still familiar (and the changes welcome, I might add)! Fresh-squeezed lemonade simply could never be replaced as the choice back-porch summer beverage!

5. dance, dance, dance. Lately, I’ve been feeling a freedom in my spirit… remember the song, “Every time I feel the spirit, moving in my heart I will pray” and the gospel choir song, “When I think about Jesus, and what He’s done for me, when I think about Jesus and how He set me free, I could dance, dance, dance, dance, dance, dance, dance all night!”? Well, I’m feeling it.

Unnumbered number 6. I hate that the 5 things I just thought of are all about me. Pooh that.

Have a great Friday, y’all!