This is a tweaked version of a little article to appear in the next Journey, the HS newsletter I write for the guidance office.
When I was in high school, a regular day would find me dreaming about a future version of myself… a very good looking version.
I wasn’t messy or disorganized. I was never late to work and always dressed exactly right. I was never over-stressed or panicked about what the next days and weeks might bring. I was responsible (but care-free), busy (but not overworked), tidy (but not obnoxiously so), and punctual (but flexible).
Basically, I created a dreamy, perfect version of myself and decided that would be my future.
I was comfortable thinking I would “grow” into this person and eventually have all the good habits and character traits I was missing.
Then, I went to college. I got a job. Then, I got another job. Now, I am here.
I am still waiting for the perfect version of myself to appear and introduce all the habits I thought would just grow into my life. Six years later.
What went wrong?
Let me share a little secret the great, big, nasty world has been keeping from me: I will never get “there.”
No matter how many people tell me it gets easier and no matter how many times I convince myself this crazy phase of life will pass, it won’t. There are some things about who I am that will never change. I can’t change my personality or the way I was wired to try a thousand things at one time.
There are other things (like being punctual and responsible) that I can change with a little bit of good, old-fashioned discipline. Apparently, what I should have been thinking about (during my daydreams in Mrs. Tietz’s classes) was making habits out of that future picture of myself.
I am setting out to change the habits I form with my everyday decisions. I’ll try to stop daydreaming about a future, perfect version of myself and instead try to make habits today worth keeping.